I'm messed up and I have nothing figured out. I change my mind all the time and it makes me seem like I'm never happy. I like to stay in my room and do schoolwork or watch tv shows.
I'm a one big failed expectation that weighs too much.
Personal blog : http://giveme-blood.tumblr.com/
I hardly use it anymore. It contains so much negative energy that it overwhelms me.
If anyone wants to find me, I’ll be on http://on-the-side-of-the-angels.tumblr.com/.
However, I am truly grateful for all the wonderful support I have gotten here over the past year and a half. But now, I am moving on. I know I will struggle sometimes, but I have it in my mind to give myself a chance to bloom.
I’ll just leave it hanging here for a while. This blog will be deleted the next time I come here.
I wish everybody the very best.
Things have gotten harder for me, then easier, then harder again and now I don’t know where I am, what I feel or what to do. Sometimes I think I feel nothing at all.
I’m extremely busy, the deadline for my book is coming closer and I’m still not ready. School is stressful and people are weird. My physical health is not good and it makes me sad.
So I picked up running again. Better food probably will also be helpful.
Overall, I’m still fat, still weird, still mental, but today feels good.
I’m not really sure whether I’ll keep this blog much longer. I’m most usually only on my other one (http://on-the-side-of-the-angels.tumblr.com) because it’s easier than coming back here.
We’ll see.
I can’t eat well- I purge and I starve. I can’t starve properly- I binge.
I’m covered in ugly cuts, burns and scars.
repulsive repulsive repulsive repulsive repulsive repulsive
Two weeks to get thinner. Two weeks.
And from then it will be easy.
I would be dead right now. Or in the mental hospital.
Seriously, the only thing keeping me somehow stable is school and the fact that I can’t fail it.
(Source: confessionsabouteatingdisorders)
